Little Thoughts

Have Cake. Want to eat it.
April 11, 2012, 11:29 pm
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I feel like my friends split into two categories. They either make me feel sane/normal/calmed or they make me feel wild/open/everything. Both are necessary, but different friends are needed at different times as your mental state requires. This is fine, logistically, because you can have multiple friends.

I want to find that magical unicorn that will at all times intuit whether I need to be calmed down or wound up and know how to make that happen. This theoretical possibility really fucks with me sometimes.


Touring Turing Turning Tuning
March 28, 2012, 12:19 am
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I’ve been so mixed up these past couple of years. Working so hard for the band, singularly focused, and at the same time all these new opportunities and experiences. But I got to this point where I am so worried about what comes next. An image of yourself that you feel the need to maintain. A success that you wonder if you will duplicate.

I realized that there are these cycles. You are unhappy, so you open your brain up, re-evaluate, maybe change your world view or accept everything in an attempt to find something stable and better to hold onto. Creating. Exploring. Finding what fits. Then once you catch that glimpse of success or happiness, wanting to hold onto it closes you down, trying to put a formula around what got you to be happy, that formula drying up that rich openness you had in the searching for an attempt at stability.

But there’s nothing like that purity in the openness. Even if it means being less stable, more likely to fail. I keep reminding myself of that these days.

I need to get
November 11, 2009, 4:40 pm
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Devendra Banhart’s new album.

Things I’d Like
September 11, 2009, 2:59 pm
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  1. A panini machine, and they’re super cheap, even for good ones…
  2. An espresso machine, but they’re really expensive…
  3. A bartending job, but I have to learn how to bartend, aka pour shots, before that can happen.

To-dos, or reminders, or whatever.

Living Cartoon Profile No. 7
August 28, 2009, 8:42 pm
Filed under: Lists

Name: Josiah Johnson

Name people actually use: Jos

Origin of name people actually use: shortened version of actual name, originally coined by an ex-girlfriend and it just stuck

Preferred room temperature: 66 degrees F

Roommate’s preferred room temperature: 72 degrees F

Does this cause problems?: yes.

Most creative thing ever done: hard to know for certain. perhaps has never done anything truly creative. tells himself this when feeling depressed about not feeling very creative.

Preferred karaoke song: Queen – Bohemian Rhapsody. Once won a ship-wide karaoke contest on a cruise ship to Alaska for his friend and roommate’s grandparents 50th wedding anniversary.

Food group most often consumed: what food group is caffeine a part of?

Preferred Simpsons character: Moe. mainly because of the episode he falls in love with caring for Maggie.

Does he ever find time to think about the feelings of people other than himself?: rarely.

I find myself
August 28, 2009, 4:00 pm
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I have gone for too long in the same direction without checking myself before I start wrecking myself.  I’ve lifted my head up out of the tall prairie grass and have seen where I’ve come, and I don’t like it.  It’s time to start making some changes around here…

a short poem
August 27, 2009, 5:34 pm
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no you are not meant to be for me

but yes you will wait for me tomorrow by the downtown building

with the sneaking suspicion that I am with someone else

right now with someone else doing things I do to you

but if it weren’t true would it even matter

you are unsettled and will never be otherwise.